Our meal tonight, Sheppard’s Pie with mushrooms, corn and sour cream Yukon Gold mashed potatoes. This is the first time I've made this since Tony passed away. I just could not bring myself to make this meal because this was the last dinner we shared. I will never forget the image of Tony standing at my front door, his pants undone, rubbing his full belly with leftovers in his hand and a grin from ear to ear on his beautifully happy face. We told each other I 'love you' planned our next week’s Sunday supper and said good night. That was the last time I saw my friend of 19 years....I've missed him every day. This will make its way to my Recovery Journal, one step at a time towards healing.